Compromising self esteem

There are those who are always ready to insult others if given a chance and those who even after getting a rightful chance to settle scores, show compassion just to earn love and respect. But this latter set of fools, ultimately subject themselves to insult and treachery.
I am the one who has never earned accolades for good deeds but yes, i have always earned insult and embarrassment for every supposedly wrong thing that i have done and that to at the hands of my own people.I am surrounded by people who have established relations just for NAMESAKE.Those are not friends who always ask for explanations.Those are enemies in guise of friends who instead of filling in for friends' infirmities exploit it.
All this is because now a days friendship is only for convenience.People now have several set of friends and for each set we have different face.
One set-with whom we study.
another-with whom we play.
another-with whom we like to spend time because they are our source of enjoyment.
I am the one who is only for satisfying others thirst for mirth.For everything else there is "Master Card".My humorous nature has always been my enemy.I am never taken seriously by others.Whole day i fool around -joking- making others laugh.I know i am not doing any social service but still i do it because i like it, when everyone feels happy in my company.But this jokey personality of mine has never earned me friends but fun seekers ,who in pursuit of happiness join me in good times, but never turn up in times of need, though many a times they offer two or three consoling words .I never show my disapproval to my friends but they always do.I love to make my friends happy by offering them chocolates.Whenever someone comes to my place i give them full attention .If they want i make them rest on my bed while i sit on chair.To see them off i always accompany them to their bikes.But all these actions of mine have brought me no respect.

Why is it that ,friends do not understand what the other person wants.If one is not in mood for "time pass" ,why is he always forced to do that.Why is it like -friends enforcing their will on others.
Sun does not rise at same time at every place similarly everyone is different and one person's wish may not necessarily be in conjugation with others.Why is it that we do not respect others decision.If one cannot understand someone even after spending a lot of time with him/her ,then there is no point continuing with that relationship.Never go to a place where you are not respected.Never meet the one who does not care for your self-esteem.
Its true-jhukti hai duniya jhukane wala chahiye and i have numerous of these jhukane wale.
Whenevr there is a need for a joker i am called but on rest all occasions i am never remembered.
One who is selfish triumphs in today's world so from now on i will work only to meet my selfish ends .To hell with the rest.

Here i remember one line that one of my friends told me-"Life is like a football match and you are a goalkeeper .No matter how many goals you save ... you will be remembered for the one you did not."

Now what i am going to write is not a part of the original post.I know i have been too harsh with my words.But this is just because i was very emotional ,offended and humiliated by something.May be my friends would not agree with some of the things i have written, but please bear with this.I definitely think , what i wrote is true.I have never been able to put forth my grievances to whom i should have but through this i want others to tell me why do they do this to me.. i wrote this because my expectations were a bit higher from them.I want them to think with cool mind whether they were correct or not.If they were wrong anywhere then please just accept it because "you cannot improve if cannot accept your fault" but if they still think that i am being wrong here then please do give feedback (positive).This should be taken as a platform to clear all suspicions and misconceptions rather than as another reason to fight.